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In my headshe is beautiful
one of a kind...unkind
yet special in her own way.
hard to handle
but so easy to love and be around every single
she is the moon that lights up my darkest days
the star the guides me when i am lost
in the desert of my own madness
after walking astray.
she is the crown i wear
before a crowd that wishes
i were dead.
i am victorious although miserable
in my own head.
unintentionalson, i am the gun
and you are my bullet
that made your mom explode
and come undone like a puzzle.
we are one and the same
that is why we must both wear a muzzle,
but you are the only one to blame
which is why i must test my muscle on you...
it is the only way to undo
what i have done,
redemption for all except one...
the tumor we call an accident.
unintentional damage upon the one i love
i must amend.
In heavenIn heaven, all the small children
play in a field of daisies
made up of tissue paper...
In hell they play in a pit of fire
with pitch forks, knives and razor blades.
where are my shades?
i think i might be spending some time
in the latter.
Even the mad hatter,
wishes upon a shooting star
because fallen angels are the most attractive
centerpiece for any table no matter how sane you are.
Ill kill youit hurts daddy...(sobbing,) please stop i don't like it!!
you are the worst of all
the people around me.
i really thought you were here to protect me?
i guess i was wrong...maybe i was a bad kid
and needed some guiding all along
come punish me one way or another!!!
after all!!!!!you are my father and you must know what is right
i am too young too know anything at all!!!!
but why is it that i feel this anger and hatred inside me
i will someday kill you, slowly...with my own hands till i pop
one of your lungs...
emptiness is blueemptiness is feeling blue,
in a pink parade of happy faggots
where black and white get high on glue
and tiny pills that resemble maggots.
life has been beer and skittles
for way too long...
the same ol' tune and angry voice
playing back in my ol' favorite song.
"Rock 'n' Roll some stranger down the hill"
when we are drunk off our ass,
is a game that we play when sipping liquor
and smoking grass.
but its all the same,
nothing but fun and games
that have grown old way too quick.
don't know what else to do,
now that blue has turned
It's back on me making me sick?
PetalsI pull off a petal
"He loves me."
His smile is the galaxy I live and breathe in.
I pull off a petal.
And when he can't make time for me, that's okay.
He makes up for it in his kisses.
I pull off a petal.
The other girls don't matter
Because he comes home to me.
It hurts a little but I deal with it
Because he is the sun and the stars.
I pull off a petal.
He may ignore me sometimes
But deep down I know he cares.
I pull off a petal.
I'm hurting, but I need him.
He's the only one in my head.
He's the air in my lungs.
I pull off a petal.
"He loves me not."
speechlessI swear, I don't think I've ever
met a person quite like you before.
You stir up an inconceivable amount of feelings
inside of me, and it seems that I can never
find the right words to say whenever I'm around you.
A MemoryI remember eating marshmallows
roasted by candle
Dancing in the light
of your cell phone with our voices
making a tune at midnight
Days spent jumping, laughing,
Our feelings seemed connect
As did our hands intertwined
when we'd crossed a mess.
When we'd made our palms bleed
From swinging off trees,
Or when we dug a hole
To hide from the world
We spent snowy days in our shorts and bare feet
Just to see who could stand the heat of the burning freeze
And when I got too cold
you'd pick me up and run us home,
Rainy days were spent laying in puddles listening to the drops, getting soaked
And the sunniest were spent in swimsuits spraying each other with a hose
But every story has an end
So I lost my best friend...
What felt like death
When you left
Because every leaf kicked up in the fall...fell
and every raindrop to be caught...missed
every snowflake to be felt... melt
every flame to jump over in the summer sky...burned out
All these memories fall on my head;
Talking on your
historically inaccurate documents-i-
you were perfect.
i could not look directly
at your flare, your lace,
i learned to love and blush
in that moment.
there are eight planets
and each one orbits
i am the first person to name
this cluster of stars
for the handful of freckles
on your arm
that it mirrors.
and i am also
you are the gleaming envy
of every viewer. you stand
bathed in worship-worthy
nervous ticks that only i
not a single other being
in our plane
is made of matter.
you alone are real
and we are the shatters
of the echoes
your breathing makes.
cusped quasars sync
portals swarming out of
sinusoidal orders. ornate
soils storing digitized loyalties
of lovers purring potently.
potential switched kinetic
all times are ours
and all dimensions follow
all rhymes involve
and all tensions swallow
we're all right
in all beds
with all words
like the length
of our lives,
we are withou
One nightOne night, I can be with you.
I don't have to look at the moon
anymore; hoping that you will be
looking too. The stars dance
around the moon like all those
other girls do, because they want
to be with you.
Envy begins to the poison that
sets into my veins; how any of
those girls could make you feel
like you've found the one but I'm
just going to be that girl that
sits on the side wishing that
you could love me.
You won't even know anything about
me but, I know so much about you,
my dear. The way that you smile the
definition of happiness, to the way
your voice plays a symphony that is
I begin to fall in love with you
all over again, like I did before.
Nothing could make me feel so safe
and warm in a cocoon except for you;
looking at me with those blue eyes
that are brighter then the ocean
itself making it jealous of you.
Our UniverseHere we are in our mundane universe.
We stand underneath the night sky
And gaze up at the stars.
We are two small specks of dust
Attached to each other by tangled fingers.
My toes wiggle deeper into the sand
As I watch you splash around in the warm water.
Sometimes it's hard to believe there's a universe out there.
But we'll see it someday.
Together, hand in hand,
We will explore this huge galaxy.
We will make our own discoveries.
We will search for adventure
All the while we hold tightly to each other.
Because I see the universe in your eyes and your heart.
Because no matter how far we go
We'll still be two little dots
Lying on that beach
For you If the stars don't shine tonight
Will you still love me?
If our hearts stopped beating
Would you forgive me?
If the earth stopped spinning
Would you still hate me
Yes I know darling you still hate me, your hate for me burns like a raging inferno.
I understand no matter what I will always love you.
The truth is you could take everything I love, strip me down from everything, break me, even slit my throat and I would still love you.
You raised me from the hell I was drowning in, the black abyss I was trapped in for so long.
To this day I don't know why you would do that just to leave me!
I did everything you asked.
I stood up for you.
I fought for you
I would have even taken a bullet for you...
but still your pierced that knife through my back grinning the entire way
I would have done anything for you
Even if you died I would have died with you
Even if that meant taking my own life and losing my wings
Your StarlightYour Starlight:
Climbing up the steep slope
Completely enveloped in summer
Night's warm embrace
My goal silhouetted against the moon
The Withered old tree stood
Covered in the scars of forgotten promises
Placing a hand on the old bark
I remove a pocketknife into my hand
Staring at the blank spot
I recall memories from my life,
My first steps, my first Dance
My first Love, My first broken heart.
The tears come before I can stop them
Even now the scars still hurt
Clenching my fist I closes my eyes
Trying to contain the pain
Suddenly I feel a pair of arms
Wrap around my shoulders
Opening an eye I saw
Arms made of starlight
Turning 'round I saw him
My star, the only one who cared
I hadn't spoken to him since I was young
But that didn't matter to him
He smiled and hugged me again,
"Do not worry." He whispered into my ear
"Though you've grown, I'll still be here."
He held onto my shoulder and smiled at me
I said with more tears than ever
"How can you still care? I almost forgot you were ther
I'll Know It's You When...Daddy told me that I’ll know
I found you when your fingers
can conduct an orchestra
in my heart and your lips will
taste like ocean water and autumn leaves,
he said I won’t bite my tongue anymore
and the ashes under my skin will be
replaced with things like New York snow
and even glitter. He said when I can
taste my laugh as it ripples out my throat,
when my socks are filled with love letters
and little scented candles, that’s when
I’ll know I found you. He said to picture
a circular object in the sky and if I look at it
and it becomes the sun instead of the moon
then, yeah, I’ve found you.
DADACherry-flavored liquid candy
Gave me many, many, many maybes but nothing certain.
Confused to the point of absurdity,
DADA is my forte.
Ride your hobby horse in the living room
Of your parent's home,
I am immoral but mortal so don't worry...just kill me.
I will love you more if you promise to break my bones
Because this abuse is just so normal.
Perfumed kisses make me Ill,
Nothing is real except for this growing desire
In me to seek and kill...
AndromedaAmongst the darkened skies
Brightened by only starlight
Field & Sea.
Gravity is only an afterthought
Hilltops become ladders into the sky while
Inferior planets stare down upon the Earth
Jealous of such simplicity yet contemplating grandeur.
Keppler only thought of science
Linear, elliptical, movement…
Mythology had no such thoughts
Neptune & Nebulas both inhabit space
Orbiting across the lonely darkness
Probably never worried about mundane things
Questioning their existence
Right now or for all eternity such as us.
Shooting stars make us joyful while
Terminator is an otherworldly spectacle
Unknown to all those hidden in their houses
Various stars await us outside
Waiting to play like we did before
Xenagogue & inviting
Youthful but ancient curiosities.
Zenith induced euphoria continues until daylight…
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